CHU on this...: July 2009

So lately I've come to the realization that I lean on my friends and family too much. Not that it's bad, but I've, in some ways, put other people above the Lord. The problem here is that people will always let you down....God won't.

I've noticed this lately because I've been down due to people "not meeting my expectations." The first "let down" came from my best friend of 14 years. For years I've been waiting for my best friend to come back to the states from Germany. She did come in for my wedding in October, but her and her family have officially moved back to the US. Although they are transfering to California, they were in Ohio for a short period of time. For a long time, she told me how excited she was to get together when they came to town. But slowly that excitement seemed to wear off, and then when they were in town, I never heard from her.

The second stems from me trying to reach out to a girl in our house church. She was hanging out with us for a while, but lately is distant. Says she'll attend an event but then doesn't. Says she'll come to house church but doesn't. One particular instance was that she said she was going to my birthday dinner but ended up drinking with friends instead. I don't know if I'm more let down by her or if I've let myself down by not being able to reach her.

And lastly, I feel a little let down by family. I don't require gifts, and would rather not have them, but I love getting cards for my birthday. It lets me know people care and are thinking of me. Coming from a large family, I've received a lot of birthday cards, but each year the number of cards lowers. Makes me wonder if they remember me.

All this said, I'm not writing these to be all "Woe is me, no body like me." But to remind me that in just the last two weeks, all these people have let me down in some way. It's probably not their intention to do so, but human nature. So I need to lean on Him more!

That's all! :)